Showing posts from February, 2008

Slowly Backing Away... Hands Raised in Surrender

It's been a while... again. It's at this point that I'd probably add in some sort of explanation (i.e. I'm soo busy, etc.), but there really isn't one. All I can say is that for the past several months I have been dealing with some pretty severe emotional flak, and I'm having a hard time wading through it.

I'm tired. Exhausted, actually, and no amount of sleep refreshes me.

My feelings are very bruised.

I'm lonely. It would seem that all of the effort I've put into my relationships has been for naught. My friendship has been deemed worthless which, in turn, has made me feel worthless. Currently, the only people I feel I can truly count on are my parents.

To be completely honest, I'm totally floored. I didn't see this coming. But strangely, looking back, I'm kind of surprised that I didn't see it. It's been happening for a long time, yet here I am, stunned. How did I let it get this far?How did I not see it as it was happening? Why di…